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[09 Feb 2009|08:05pm] |
michael jordan had his flu game. i just had my flu midterm. hard to say who is more badass right now. never been so delirious before haha
you know that feeling when you wake up really confused not knowing where you are and your stuff is missing and someone drew all over your face. or when you stare at words for a really long time and they start looking really strange and abstract like they aren't words at all. or when you're really sleepy and you stare at the jaggy bumpy bits on the ceiling and you see blobs fighting wars (seriously). that is delirium
my chem ta is from south korea and he likes to talk to me about professional starcraft.
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[12 Dec 2008|08:15pm] |
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college is hard
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| bored |
[28 Oct 2008|01:49am] |
idk whats been wrong with me lately. everything is so boring. and im not that happy. its lasted for awhile too. i might even classify this as minor depression haha.
stuff has been going well though. grades are awesome. also worked my way up lab a bit and got some more independent work.
idk nothing is super fun anymore. embarrassing to admit, but back in the day i would be so pumped to have free time because i would just play video games and go nuts. but i dont like video games that much anymore. or last year we'd just drink. wander around the halls. it was so fun. piss on things and then run from security guards haha. that only happened once.
anyways that stuff is real boring now. i dont even go to parties that much anymore. cant get into the mood. im such a downer hehe
i dont feel that motivated about anything. i just study enough to do well and then dick around in other peoples rooms. just wasting time.
it just feels like something is missing. some drive or passion. maybe vitality. i feel dead.
yea, nothing seems as fun as it used to be. i dont get those soul crushing laughs. or feel pumped about stuff when i wake up and head out to do stuff. maybe i was just too happy in hs haha.
i want to go on an adventure or something. i need to find my destined hobby. something i can pour everything into. something really fun and awesome. i want to know what it is. and i hope i have one.
maybe its the weather. fucking freezing
ok fuck this im going to find my hobby. ill let u guys know what it is. soul search time babyyy
and i need some concrete goals. DIRECTION
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[04 Oct 2008|06:30pm] |
the econ teacher who is teaching the other section has such a strange sense of humor. rofl.
"Bob and Alita are on a quest to defeat the evil Lord Hexis. In order to defeat him they will need to summon an army of both undead and nature creatures. Alita has the ability to summon 4 devils or 12 unicorns. Bob can only summon 1 devil, but has a magic staff which allows him to summon 18 unicorns in one turn."
Plot their individual summoning possibilities frontier. Put unicorns on the horizontal axis.
and then they go on to meet some other summoner. and they now specialize and start trading summons in order to defeat the mighty hexis.
lol wtf. unicorns on the x axis.
also there are questions about workers in boston making red socks and workers in chicago making white socks.
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school is kind of terrible right now. japanese and physics make me sad. lol i dont think im going to take four years of japanese anymore. we'll see.
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[05 Sep 2008|06:17pm] |
lol. we're throwing a girl drink party in our apt. i can now shameless drink all the smirnoff ice ive ever wanted. it tastes like candy. our fridge is filled with it right now rofl its so funny looking.
on that note i need to get more music for this party. preferably black music. so gimme suggestions
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school kinda sucks right now. ive already complained about this but it would've cost me $900 to buy all the books i need USED from the penn bookstore. and they dont give me isbns or even the correct title so amazon is difficult. luckily i got some books from friends, and a little amazon and ended spending $400.
my mondays are terrible. i have class from 9-5 on mondays nonstop. i get a one hour break at 3pm. which makes me sad because i wanted to eat lunch earlier. idk how it happened but i have four hours of physics on monday. and im not even an engineer. i did sign up for engineering physics though cuz i didnt feel like taking ap physics b again. im a real man now.
anyways, all my other days are usually 10-2 nonstop. sometimes a bit longer if i have labs. and then after class is over i usually head over to the lab to murder mice.
i usually get back home around 6:30. the girls usually make us dinner (best friends ever baby) and its quite tasty. they even made garlic bread the other day. YES
then i usually go to the gym to do my manly squats. gonna start incorporating interval sprints. and once i get goggles i want to start swimming.
yea and then i do hw until i sleep.
hopefully it wont be like this forever. the lab project needs to be finished by next thursday so thats why i go in for so many hours each day. i have to go in this weekend too. its gonna pay off though unless i get jinxed.
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japanese 3 is hella hard right now. ive forgotten everything. its kinda scary. i wont start panicking until i fail the first quiz. hopefully it doesnt have to get there.
i cant imagine learning physics in college without taking ap physics. its way too fast. and they dont even explain it that well because there's not enough time to. theres a lot of tiny things you need to understand along the way but the teacher just assumes you know it already.
and idk how this happened but we have no gaming systems. WTF. i didnt bring my nintendo because i felt bad for my sister. without it her life is meaningless haha. mario party. my roommate didnt bring his ps3 because he said it was too big. wtf. and one kid isnt bringing the xbox until thanksgiving because it didnt fit.
i cant wait though. gonna buy ikaruga off xbox arcade. if u have xbox arcade BUY THIS GAME it is the greatest topdown shooter ever. epic planes epic bosses and lots of bullets to dodge.
its just awesome
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[29 Aug 2008|10:01pm] |
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david zhu has mastered the art of drunk dial. im so proud of him
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| good times |
[23 Aug 2008|03:43pm] |
wasting time on gametrailers.com when i stumbled on a video about the top10 greatest 2d shooters.
holy shit that brought back memories. there were two games on that list that i played ALL THE TIME when i was a kid but for some reason i never knew their titles. after super mario world and street fighter 2, these two games were one of the first games i've ever played haha.
the first game i just called the hella difficult game. i remember it was really hard and i dont think i ever beat it.
the second game was the creepy space shooter game. the music was CREEPY AS FUCK. id be hella scared. i even thought the plane i piloted was creepy. everything was all dark and moody. but man that was a great game.
yea snes was the best. i only had these two games + mario + street fighter. and i remember borrowing link to the past from blockbuster but i didnt end up beating that until emulators haha.
my imagination was really messed up back then. after a couple minutes of playing i dont think i realized i was playing the game anymore bc i got so into it. complete suspension of disbelief.
god axelay was creepy
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| SELL |
[16 Aug 2008|04:58pm] |
selling new unopened ipod touch.
will sell at 250 but willing to negotiate
TELL ALL YOUR FRIENDS
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[12 Aug 2008|10:39pm] |
anyone know why phelps didn't wear the overpowered swimsuit during his 200m fly.
actually, half of the guys didn't wear it. it can't be that they're trying to show off or anything, that would make absolutely no sense (play to win baby). so somehow they must be faster when they don't wear the swimsuit? something to do with fly mechanics because phelps wore it during the freestyle relay.
i drink lactose free milk now. it is literally twice as expensive as normal milk. which is RETARDED. but anyways, i just realized that a gallon of milk costs more than a gallon of gas.
that makes me sad
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| in which i break and enter |
[02 Aug 2008|11:22am] |
i believe in miracles now. it was supernatural.
so the van to take me to the airport comes in 30 min so ill make this quick. this morning lara came by to pick up my stuff. basically the lamp, bed sheets, pillow, etc.
i walk outside with the lamp and the door closes behind me. so now im locked out. lara had cousins in the car so i told her id figure out a way to get in and give the rest of my stuff to someone else.
so yea no one was in the house. either they were asleep or phones were off or they werent there. on the first passthrough around the side of the house the windows were all blocked off by metal grates with locks on them. one of the windows was semi open and on the first floor so i knew i could probably climb up to it if the grate wasnt locked.
so i gave up and just sat on the front porch, hoping for someone to show up. this was 30 min ago so if people didnt show up soon id miss my van and maybe even the flight.
so now i prayed for a miracle. quite literally. i was still calm for some reason. i knew there was time left but in the back of my mind i knew some shit was gonna go down and i was going to be saved.
so i go back around the side. i was in denial, i was hoping something would happen. and something DID happen. the lock on the grate of the semi-open window was now cut. yea i know all of you wont believe me. i probably just glanced at the lock the first time and didnt realize it was cut. BUT it was so obviously cut i dont even know how i missed it the first time. i even pulled at all the grates the first time. so anyways somehow the lock was cut (after i prayed. hence miracle). i dont even know why. lol. i was seriously like wtf just happened.
so yea i pulled the lock off, opened the grate. the window was a little high so i had to do a wannabe parkour running wall jump hehe. and since im jacked now and can do pullups i hoisted my way up and scraped myself through the window. the bottom edge where i was grabbing onto had this annoying window guard thing that really dug into my hands but other than that it was pretty pain free.
so i was saved by the lock gods man. seriously.
i swear it was locked the first time.
the end
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| inspiration |
[30 Jul 2008|06:50pm] |
so in the span of two hours i saw two inspirational events unfold.
FIRST i saw a lotus elise parked outside the gym. beauty
secondly but infinitely more inspirational, this guy was deadlifting 400+ with one arm. it wasn't because he was trying to be a badass (although he was) it was because he only had one arm. other arm was amputated at elbow and he had straps attach the bar to it.
i dont even know how he got the plates on in the first place.
and he wasn't even that big. 180-200 lbs and only slightly taller than me. GANGSTER
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[24 Jul 2008|09:34pm] |
one week left. ive been thinking of what i've accomplished. and i havent accomplished much haha. gonna make a more comprehensive list later to make me feel good about myself but yea. off the top of my head.
there's a couple places i go to a lot to eat. im happy to say that people who work there now know who i am and what i always get. this has been a LIFELONG DREAM OF MINE. if i drank coffee or had hella cash to blow i would want to walk into a starbucks, have my drink made, cut the line, pick it up and leave. nothing could be more gangster.
1: so there's a food truck i go to a bunch for lunch. i dont have to say anything and they make me a cheesesteak the way i like it. btw this food truck serves one of the best cheesesteaks in philadelphia. seriously. it's better than the famous ones like abners or genos. but yea i always get it with onions, sweet peppers, and a bit of ketchup. and i dont have to say a word. awesome. and theyre old german guys so that makes it doubly glorious.
2: i go to qdoba a lot. basically this is a cheap chipotle knock-off. they serve exactly the same things, but in much smaller portions. people make a big deal about how much tastier chipotle is, but honestly the difference isn't THAT big. it's just that the portions are so much smaller. and the ingredients usually aren't as warm (weird). but yea i brought the teachings of carl yang to this qdoba. usually a big nice black guy works the counter and i get the triple servings of rice + tortilla on the side. happiness
3: korean guy works the smoothie place at the gym. i always get the same thing so yea it's great. he likes watching soaps haha. i told him the only one i've seen is full house and he said that one was horrible. HAHA. the girl was such a cutie though. go korean girls.
i havent been drawing at all. lol. time to draw like mad this last week i guess. my sister who is already great at drawing has been drawing 7 hours a day at cmu. ill never catch up.
havent skated in awhile because it keeps raining. im decent at just skating around now. haha. cant do anything else. had a couple bad falls. god i ALWAYS land in the same place too. my poor left knee. it healed in about two weeks after the first fall. a day after i peeled off the scab, i fell and landed in the exact same manner. on my left side, sliding a bit, on my knee. ugh.
i wanted to read a book every two weeks but that didnt work out. in the end i read one book (haha). stephen king's autobiography, on writing. REALLY good. i havent read a single stephen king book, but now i want to pick one up. it talks about his career as a writer, and some tips on writing fiction. ive never thought about writing fiction the way he explains it.
ive gained about 5 lbs. hell yea. 140 baby. slowest weight gain process ever lol. weighing yourself every day is really demoralizing because you either weigh less or you weigh .2 more. but then somehow after like two weeks u randomly gain a pound. MAKES NO SENSE. my squat technique is impeccable. my deadlift technique blows. everything else is competent.
lab wise i got through one project. i pipet like a jedi master. i section like a god. i rock the confocal. but i have a 2% success rate with injections. LOL seriously. i felt horrible. we were practicing tail vein injections on mice. we'd inject ketamine (SPECIAL SPECIAL K). if it hit the mouse would instantly die. i stabbed the poor guy in the tail at least fifteen times with fifteen failures. yea that was pretty bad haha. the intramuscular injections were a lot easier, but even those i had like maybe a 70% rate of success.
i would probably bleed to death if i tried heroin.
i got good with dissections but now i probably suck again because i havent done them in like a month. man this one lab tech is amazing at organ harvest. give her a live mouse and she'd kill it, take out all the major muscles + organs (even brain) in maybe 10 minutes. probably faster. im happy to do it in half an hour, usually it takes even longer. and i usually squash everything a bit so its pretty shitty histology. learned some surgeon tricks haha.
my hands are much shakier than i thought they'd be. i don't do caffeine, i have maybe a cup of coffee every two months. i think i had like maybe 4 red bulls total this year. but yea my hands are way shakier than i thought they'd be. but the guy i talked to said not to worry about it because there's maybe 5% with godlike dexterity, 5% who would kill everyone, and the other 90% it's just practice + learning technique.
this is probably the nerdiest thing ever but this girl who's in med school right now is taking her boards and her practice tests LOOKED HELLA FUN. HAHAHAHA. she's in her third year, so the tests aren't like bio tests anymore. all the questions i saw were stuff like, "dude walks in with chest pain. blah blah blah. here's an xray" and then there's a multiple choice where you pick the disease/condition. or you choose what scan to do, etc. so it's like 50 episodes of house in one test. COOL. so yea i mean medicine seems kinda fun. just gotta get through a lot of bullshit. and be poor.
seriously, all the business school or ibanking kids who work out of undergrad are gonna be retiring by the time i break even with debt. first they get a four year head start where they're working when i'm paying for med school. effectively it's prob like a 6 year headstart since medschool is so goddamn expensive. and then when you finally get out you basically get paid like minimum wage for a couple years. so there's like another 2 year gain. and even then you cant really catch up on income unless you specialize (aka iono 5 more years rofl).
so yea assuming i go through with this im gonna be broke as fuck lmao. it actually doesnt sound so bad to me now. i really dont spend that much money. and right now having a lot of money wouldnt even make me happy cuz i have nothing i want to buy. but this attitude will prob change in the future when everyone gets to go on nice vacations + club in vegas while i go home to a little apartment wishing i could buy a ps4 or something.
but whatever. money is the dark side. ill get to cut people open and have ER shouting fests while the other kids dick around on their computers.
i hope
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| hero time |
[22 Jul 2008|07:25pm] |
so i just met my hero at the gym. hes shorter than me, prob like jason lee height maybe a little shorter (haha). he weighs 160. SQUATS OVER 500. that is some amazing shit man. its funny because i ran into him back in february or something and he was benching in the power rack because it was so heavy. he was benching at least 300. chalk and belts and everything.
proud moment for me was when he approved of my squat form. hehe.
anyways im happy to have met him. hes a grad student in a powerlifting club so now i get a bunch of people to teach me how to deadlift. awesome.
this is upcoming weekend is going to be my last. kinda sad actually. life isnt that boring anymore im starting to like it. but yea going home will be awesome =].
PEACE SHALOM
oh yea this is for matt's crosstraining entry
crosstraining is hella intense im not doing that shit for a million years.
AND FUCK THIS SHIT. the squirrel in the attic keeps thumping like its a chipmunk. IT WONT FUCKING STOP O M G. i bet theyre having sex. =[
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[09 Jul 2008|10:59pm] |
i just had the most ghetto cooking experience of my life. in the basement of the frat house is where i cooked some hamburger helper.
so let's start off with the surroundings. first i couldnt even cook in the kitchen area because it was swarming with flies. like this is quintessential swarming. as in lord of the flies the pig's head is blackened by flies. ok maybe not that severe but it's close. so i had to unplug the stove and bring it to the other side of the basement where the fly population was less concentrated.
the kitchen area is seriously disgusting. there were concentric circles of grime at the bottom of the sink. if there is a shit rainbow in this world, it was represented in that sink. each circle was a different color. there was brown, and green, and some brown green. and some shiny brown stuff. all shades of brown. and green. vomit green was there.
and there wasn't any detergent lol. so i found this can of lysol and used it to clean everything. and then washed it off. i hope this was ok. it seemed really sketchy because i could still smell the lysol. but yea. hopefully i dont die.
there also weren't any pots. there was only a frying pan. so to boil water i had to use my little water cup that boiled water in the microwave. and the microwave was gross. nobody cleaned it and it was swarming with flies. and it was in the middle of the kitchen area. but i still had to use it so that kinda sucked.
so first i went to boil water in the microwave. hopefully i nuked some flies.
and in the meanwhile i started cooking the ground meat. the stove was really weak so it took forever. also there were flies so i had to swing around the whole time to get them off. i knew once the meat started heating up the flies would stay away. because fire is their only weakness.
also the frying pan was too small so when i added the water and the pasta it almost started overflowing. rofl. and i didnt have anything to measure the milk with so i poured in a random amount. only good cooks can pull off sexy shit like randomly pouring stuff in + ratatouille spicing. so i dont think i pulled it off hehe
oh yea and when i opened the pouch of sauce mix i opened it way too hard (cant control dem guns) and most of the mix sprayed all over my shirt and floor. and attracted more flies =[. its a losing battle.
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yea man i would post pictures of the flies and shit but i forgot my cable. basically all u gotta do for massive flies is just not take out the trash for one month. fly life cycle is pretty awesome. so first there's no flies. and then two weeks into it the adult flies come in and start swarming. so classic fly stuff.
and then one week after that all the adult flies disappear for like two days. its like the calm before the storm. i was really surprised when the flies suddenly disappeared. it was like wtf man. and then after that period its MASSIVE SWARMING of the baby flies. im guessing during those two days the maggots were transforming. anyways baby flies are hella annoying because there's so many. and they're small. theyre so small its like theyre cloaking. basically ull enter the room and there's nothing; theyre all clustered in the corners of the room. but once u enter and move suddenly the air is dotted with specks.
and it sucks.
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[08 Jul 2008|10:44pm] |
just rewatched remember the titans. so u remember the white coach's little girl who's hella into football. GUESS WHO SHE IS. yea man its hayden panettiere.
and whatever is living in the ceiling is going to come down any minute now. seriously. it sounds like it's intensely gnawing away at the thin thin planks of pseudowood above my head. i notice a lot of cracks in the ceiling now. they might have been there before haha. i hope so or im fucking screwed. ive been duct taping the sketchier cracks so the ceiling looks pretty ghetto right now.
its gonna drop down in the middle of the night and give me rabies =[. and eat all my nectarines. nectarines are so damn good.
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[20 Jun 2008|02:40pm] |
haha obligatory dad post. it's funny how once a year i have to talk about this. anyways my dad just let me know that he beat mgs4. rofl. i definitely know where my genes come from. haven't played it yet, but it should be a long game right. and it only came out like a week ago.
ridiculous
and i got my first project. oh baby. pretty much a superstar now.
peace
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[17 Jun 2008|03:44pm] |
u know how people talk about easy tricks to get cash. usually its donating blood or doing psych experiments or something like that.
WELL i finally stumbled upon penn's psych lab. and holy shit it is a gold mine rofl. there are four sessions and week and they pay around $15 for a 30 min session. and according to this girl in the lobby who goes like every day you can get up to $30. thank you wharton behavioral labs for having so much cash to blow. just went today and i had to eat a couple jelly beans and answer questions about collateral damage and whether or not soldiers should be blamed for following orders. and there was a really funny story about whether or not it is the buyer's fault if you successfully sell him a used car that you know is messed up.
but the best part was there was this game where everyone had to alternate pressing 'a' and 'b' on the keyboard as fast as possible. and through my many sessions of intense flash gaming i dominated and won an extra 3 bucks. HAHAHAHA yea its kinda sad that i was pretty proud of that.
anyways with this i will feel less guilty about buying every single meal.
and i went down the steep bridge twice while talking on my cell phone. damn i felt cool. almost crashed into this grandma though. her husband was cranky.
yea im gonna be mad rich moonlighting psych labs
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[16 Jun 2008|06:00pm] |
all you motherfuckers out for summer. cant say im not jealous.
lab has been good. took a week to really settle in. everyone pretty much ignored me the first week minus the two other undergrads. but then things got much better! got to know most of the people through basketball actually haha. basically i work in a whole lab of boston fans lol. although its wrong to cheer for socal right now its west vs east so the choice is obvious. i talked so much shit before the finals started and now i just get laughed at all the time. ARGH
but its not over yet.
it really sucks how people dont stay in the lab for much longer than a couple years though. one of the residents just finished up his research portion and he'll be leaving by the end of this week. =[. he's an awesome german guy who is hella perverted. its hilarious
this lab experience is hella better than the one i had at ysp because everyone is so much younger. i dont think there's anyone older than 40. the PI really determines the mood of the lab. he's still young so he can relate to everyone.
even the work isn't bad. still in bitch work stage but whatever. gonna be like this the first year. i dont mind sectioning though. theres skill involved and (this is gonna sound gay) but i like it when i get like 10 good sections in a row. and then i double check them under a microscope and they look fantastic. im gonna be the best sectioner in the lab baby. i was pretty nervous last week though because they finally gave me some important tissues to section. and i had to do continuous sections because they were single cell injections. but i think it turned out ok. will find out later after staining =X
and pipetting is alright since everyone else is there working and there's good conversation. ysp i was pipetting in a lonely room all day.
so yea its good to know science can be fun
haven't really stuck to my goals lol. way too hot/lazy to go the gym. but i skate like two hours a day. haven't really read or drawn either. but i havent played games either! mostly just skating around. haha i have no talent for skateboarding but oh well gotta make it up with lotsa practice. it wasn't until recently that i finally felt comfortable on the board.
i was working on my 1 second manual on the sidewalk the other day and then the board shot out into the street and a car was inches from hitting it. and i almost got run over getting the board back. but everythings ok.
in the end i still wish i was back home though. gotta make the best of it. see ya guys soon
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[01 Jun 2008|11:25pm] |
so i just found out i can't handle silence. the tv needs to be on or music needs to be on or something. even the quiet times when i was studying in my room, i'd still bother my roommate about something random every 10 minutes or so.
it's weird cuz i always thought i was the type that liked silence. it wasn't that long ago that oftentimes i would be hanging out and it'd be pretty fun but deep down i'd want to just chill in my room quietly. i distinctly remember feeling like this a lot too. but yea iono what the hell happened.
today i tried to go down the steep bridge and totally bailed into the grass. and a hobo started laughing at me. i didnt even lose balance either. i just went fast, pussied out expecting to fall and then i remember just making myself jump off when i was near the grass lol.
but ill be godlike by the end of the summer >]
and ill be good at drawing
and ill weigh a lot again
and read a good book every two weeks
GOALS!
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